Good for you Kara! My awakening was much more gradual than yours, but it was still pretty fucking jarring. What I’ve learned to do with my privilege, now that I see it, is to leverage it for the benefit of marginalized people. That could mean amplifying their voices in spaces I have access to and they don’t, putting money into the hands of Black businesses, or having individual conversations with moderate whites who still don’t “see the water” as you said (or lots of other things). I pray millions of others wake up as you have!